I will always love you - by Charles Roberts
I will always love you
Charles Roberts
Tracy stood at the side
of the open grave looking down on Rob’s coffin with tears rolling down her
cheeks, the cold easterly breeze adding to the solemn occasion. To her left stood Rob’s parents, his mother
crying uncontrollably, his father standing impassively with tears running down
his face. To Tracy’s right stood her
parents, her mother crying, her father with his arms round Tracy and his wife
fighting to hold back the tears.
In one corner of the
graveyard an order was quietly given and ten rifle shots rang out, making
everyone jump slightly, one for each year Rob had been in the Army. A Captain marched up to Tracy, halted, turned
right to face her then held the neatly folded flag out to her. She accepted the offered flag and the officer
took one pace back, then smartly saluted.
He then turned to his left and marched away tears welling up for a
fallen comrade, a brother in arms, a fellow officer and a very close friend.
Soon, the only ones left
at the graveside were the family.
Eventually they too walked slowly away, picking their way through the
gravestones to the gate and the waiting cars, which would take them to the
married quarter Tracy and Rob had moved into only eight months previously.
She could still see and
hear him, as he said his farewell before leaving the house with his kitbag six
months ago.
“Don’t worry darling,
I’ll be home before you know it and we’ll have that holiday we’ve always
promised ourselves.” He kissed her on
the cheek, “look! I know that you don’t want to hear this, but if anything
happens to me, I want you to find someone else.”
“Whatever made you say
something like that? Are you not coming
back?”
“Of course I’m coming
back darling. I’ll always love you and
take care of you.” He kissed her again
then walked out to the waiting Land Rover, then waved as he was driven away to
start his tour of duty in a war torn land overseas.
Twenty weeks later,
twenty long weeks of being apart, she was washing the lunch pots when there was
a knock on the front door. She rushed to
open it and there stood Rob’s commanding officer, his wife and the Padre. Her heart sank. She knew why they were there, she had felt
something during the night, a feeling of deep loss came to her, but she didn’t
know why. Now she knew why she had felt
what she had. Tracy had lost everything
in her life. Her best friend, her
confidant, her lover and her husband.
The Army takes care of
its own. And Tracy was no
exception. Friends and neighbours
gathered to support her in her time of need and when the time came for her to
move out of the married quarter, they all helped her to make sure she didn’t
have any problems. At first, she moved
in with her mother and father, but after a few months she found the courage to
live on her own and found a small house in a quiet part of town. She managed to find employment, so she
boosted her Army widows’ pension.
Tracy put a small table
under the living room window. On this
she placed a large framed photograph which had been taken at their
wedding. Rob did look handsome in his
dress uniform. She positioned it so that
she could see it from anywhere in the room.
She placed a smaller one of him on her dressing table upstairs.
She didn’t think much of
it at first, that she had caught the picture when she had opened the curtains
in the morning, but every day she had to put the picture back into the correct
position. She knew that it wasn’t by
much, but the picture would move during the night. It wasn’t until she came downstairs one
Sunday morning and found that the picture had been completely turned round, and
was facing the window, that she started to worry.
“Who’s doing this?” She called, “leave me alone!”
Tracy curled up on the
settee, to watch a film on the television that afternoon and started to doze
off. As she dozed, she heard Rob’s voice
in her head; she heard him saying his final words to her just before leaving.
“I’ll always love you and
take care of you.” She smiled, then got
up and went into the kitchen for a drink.
That evening she went to bed early.
Her father was coming at half past six, as they were all going on
holiday together.
Something woke her in the
early hours, a noise from downstairs.
She was wide awake and listened.
There it was again. Tracy got out
of bed, as quietly as she could, and pulled her dressing gown on then left the
bedroom and went to the top of the stairs, as she rang the police. There was a light moving around in the living
room.
Suddenly a shadow
appeared at the bottom of the stairs and started to move up.
“You alone are yer?” it
said moving up the stairs, “hey Shag we can ‘ave some fun ‘ere. There’s a bit o’ stuff up ‘ere and she looks
ripe for the plucking. Come on, if you
‘old ‘er down you can ‘ave seconds.”
Tracy backed into the bedroom and as far from the door as she
could.
The hooded youth appeared
silhouetted in the doorway. He was
rubbing the crotch of his ill-fitting baggy jeans and licking his lips.
“Come on Shag!” he
called.
Tracy knew that it was
pointless shouting or screaming because the neighbour to the left was an old
man who was as deaf as a post, and the neighbours on the other side were at
their villa in Spain, where they would be for another three months. She was on her own and her mind was a blur of
thoughts about what she could or should do now.
She heard a noise on the
stairs.
“Come on Shag you shit,
hurry up! You can ‘ave the tart first if
yer want.”
There was a thump and a
noise like someone having the breath knocked out of them, and then more
thumping and banging.
“Well, if yer don’t want
‘er them I’ll ‘ave ‘er me self.” He said.
Suddenly the door hit him, “hey!”
The door hit him again. “What
the!” He moved out of the doorway and
stood in front of the wardrobe.
“Now then you bitch! Are you going to be nice and quiet or do I
‘ave to get rough with you?”
Tracy's eyes opened wide
on seeing the large suitcase, which was full of Rob’s clothes, and kept on top
of the wardrobe, moving. It suddenly
moved off the wardrobe and then dropped onto the intruders’ head. He collapsed to the floor.
Tracy sat on the bed and
put her head into her hands and sobbed.
In the distance she could just make out the noise of police sirens. Then she felt someone taking her right hand
and hold it tenderly. She looked up and
felt a gentle kiss on her right cheek and Rob’s words came into her head, “I
will always love you and be there to take care of you.”
A vivid piece of writing. I felt the sadness at her loss and the fear when she faced the intruders. A very enjoyable read.
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